Today was horrible. And idk why. It wasn’t supposed to end up this way… im not even really trippin because its Valentines Day and I don’t have a valentine.. I think it’s a lot of things built up that are makin me so angry/depressed/ emotional/overly-sensitive, etc.
1. People thinking im an idiot, saying stupid things to me, playing childish games… im 20 yrs old.. in college.. I don’t have time for stuff like that…
2. Wen I express myself on twitter, someone who is supposed to be my “best friend,” care about how im feeling, actually makes me feel worse than I originally feel. And wat makes it worse is he is givin all his love and attention to girls who could care less about him… u cant be my best friend only wen its convenient for u cuz its NOT gonna work that way.. no matter how much I love our friendship, I CANNOT/ WILL NOT allow u to hurt me.. ESPECIALLY publicly. Don’t be fake.. cuz if I told u how I was feelin and we were alone u would not have the same reaction.. u’d want me to feel better… all I want is for u to be the friend u are supposed to be..
3. Yes, it is Valentine’s Day… so maybe im a lil upset that im chillin in my room by myself… by the fact of the matter is my phone has not rung once today… no text… no fb message.. nothing… soooo no one loves me??? That’s my first and only thought.. from NO ONE.. not my mother, any of my best friends, friends, homies, associates, grandparents, aunt, father, sisters, brother… situations like this make me re-evaulate my life, like wat is wrong me ME?? and my saying of the say has seriously been “WTF…” cuz that’s wat I been thinking… WTF is the problem?? WTF did I do??? WTF why cant I be happy???
In all honestly im prob makin this a bigger situation than it has to be but right now this is how I am feeling… like crap… ugh I jus don’t know at else to say…
Hope everyone else had a Happy Valentine’s Day tho =) [no sarcasm.. I hope no one felt like I felt today]
